Vets and Pets: My Summer Job

                 Now that I am back in Arkansas, it is imperative that I get my old job back. I worked at Vets and Pets during the summer and it was my first job. I loved it and had a lot of fun, but it was also very stressful. I have been trying to get the courage for days to call my boss up to see when he wants me to start working again. I made the initial contact before and requested the week off (to get unpacked and settled back). Now I feel like it is an obstacle just calling. I'm scared to go back. I only had 3 months of experience, and I have gone many months without lifting a finger. I know it is silly to be scared but I am. There were a lot of great times at Vets and Pets, but there were also times that was what made me scared of getting a job in the first place. Failure. I don't like messing up and getting in trouble. I don't like going in not knowing when I am having lunch, or when I get to leave. I honestly don't know how much I got paid an hour. Even though I don't live a very routine life, I do like routine. I finally made the call to the vet clinic today, so hopefully they will call me back. I don't like running from my fears, so this is a good step for me. I know its going to take a few days to get back into the routine, but I will get there. :) Also today I called ASU Beebe to see if I could just send in my high school transcripts since my college ones weren't going to do any good (plus Stetson won't release them), and that was a NO. So I don't know if I will be able to do online classes this summer. :/ I hope something looks up in the next few days.

Turning Dreams Into a Reality

             So, these last few weeks have been rough for me so I thought I would vent it all out in a brand new blog for a brand new me. For starters, I am not going to be a marine biologist and I have dropped out at Stetson University. I have gone on and on for years how I would never change mind about being one, but I have. I don't really know why other than the fact that I am not that into it anymore. I feel as if I was doing it because that is all I have ever been known to do. Leaving Stetson was very hard for me. I loved the campus and everyone there, but I lacked motivation to succeed, and I took the freedom that I had and abused it. It wasn't because I COULDN'T handle the work or I wasn't smart enough. It was all me.
             Now I am back in Arkansas and honestly I have never been more happier. I am bummed about not being in Florida, but I am making it my personal goal to go back as soon as I can. I need to stay here for a few years, and get my basics done. It might also help if I figure out what I want to do with my life. I have so many things in mind like a criminal science investigator, OB-GYN, meteorologist. I guess I need to do a little research. I am so happy that I can finally start all over again, and create more dreams. Except now I am ready to make dreams into reality. I wouldn't have made it through all this if I hadn't have had my friends and family with me.

• Tessa and Brittney: You guys truly rock. You guys helped me through this change by being there for me even if it wasn't literally by my side. And Tessa, spending the night with you at UCA showed me how much I was happy to be home, and that Arkansas isn't that much of a drag as long as your there with me. 

• Rachel: Girl, I miss you so much, and you made Stetson the best experience of my life. I will never forget any of the crazy, stupid things that we did. I hope we can stay friends and still have crazy adventures. (we are going to that skrillex concert). 

• Olivia: Girl, I miss you too. You probably wont read this, but even though you upset me and disappointed me I still love you. Go out for your dreams and conquer them. 

• Kelly: Thank you for helping me move and thanks for really being there for me the last few days of  being in Florida. I honestly don't think I could have made it without you. We had a very rocky friendship at first, but now that everything is all good I say we are more solid than ever. 

• And the most important ones of all My Parents: You guys will never read  this because you guys don't blog, or read blogs and that is o.k. You guys were there for me through it all. You were understanding and supportive the entire time that I was at Stetson (and my entire life). Thank you for raising me right, and teaching me that I can do anything that I put my mind into. I love all of you guys, and I can't wait to start this new journey...of being me.