For the last three days I have done nothing other than watch Grey's Anatomy. Sure, I could be doing something more useful with my time, but I find the show so intriguing. I think anyone who wants to be a Doctor should watch this show. Not because it has a great storyline (not to mention the lead Doctor is HOT), but because it really shows you how stressful it is to become one. Everyone in the show is trying to become surgeons, but in a way its all the same. Personally, I could never be a surgeon. A surgeon has to think on their feet and be on top of their game. I respect them. I would end up freaking out. Watching this show has freaked me out.
I find this incredibly silly, but this show has got me thinking about if I were to become a Doctor. I think the most that I thought about was what would happen when I want to have kids. I am pretty sure being a mom and a Doctor would be quite difficult. Living a normal life would be difficult. I have been torn, and the thing is I shouldn't be. I haven't even gotten back to school yet, and I am thinking about what would happen. Silly...right?
Along with the show being awesome, there are a few things that discourage me about it. For one, some of the characters on the show should not be Doctors. I believe that Doctors should care, and have excellent bed side manners. I mean your saving people's lives. Secondly, all of these interns came from Dartmouth, Yale, and a bunch of other high maintenance schools. It's making me think that I have no chance whatsoever. My grades in high school were horrible, and my first college experience was horrible. What about if I do make all good grades from now on, and I STILL don't get in. How much of a bummer would that be? All that work for nothing. I do believe that they show how much work it is. That they have correct. Just imagine being there performing surgery, and the next thing you know the person is coding, or one of their blood vessels burst. You have to know what to do, and where to do it. That is why I think being a Pathologist would be awesome. You don't have to really worry about saving a life last minute. I don't want to be responsible for losing someone during the surgery.
Anyways, the whole point of this blog isn't really to talk about how awesome this show is, and how becoming a Doctor is taking over my conscience. I got a call from Baptist Health today and they want me to come in for an interview. I didn't think they were going to call me, so I had given up on working there. When I listened to the voice mail, I hesitated calling them back. I doubted myself working with people, and fear came over me. I have always been that person who wanted to work behind the scenes, or by myself. Taking care of people has been a fear of mine. I don't honestly know what made me call them back, but I decided that it is time that I face my fears. For people that end up reading this, you also should face your fears. Step out of your comfort zone. On Friday I am going to be stepping out of mine. I hope Baptist will give me a chance. That is all I really want, a chance. Maybe being a nurse will make me want to be a Doctor even more, maybe not. All I know is that it is time for me to step out of my shell, and finally grow up.
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