A New Day

Today had a really off start. It was my fault, and I feel horrible about it. I learned from my mistake though. After this mornings events happened, I started thinking about some things that happened in my past, things that I never let go. I talked to my mother about these things (bawled actually). She told me I just needed to forgive, and that people can't change their past. I understand what she was saying, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt just the same. I don't think other people get what some things mean to me. Like not showing up for my graduation for instance. I am not going to say who wasn't there that upset me, but I will tell you that I cried. I looked all over Verizon Arena looking for that person, and they didn't show up. I was disappointed. Beyond that. And then there is people who never thought I would make it at Stetson. I believe I was staying there just so that I could prove that person wrong, and it ended up hurting me at the end. I said this in my last post, but all I needed was some encouragement, to say that I could do it. Did I get that? No. I always get the short end of the stick and I am sick and tired of letting it get to me. So that is where I am coming in to say that I am going to prove every person who never believed in me wrong. For every person who let me down, I am going to show them that it was their loss, not mine. And most important of all, I am going to be there with my friends who are not just like my family, they are my family. Because they wont let me down. I am going to make all good grades in my classes, and transfer somewhere great where I can get into medical school. I'm not saying it will be easy, cause it wont be. But I will do it. And if I decide to change my mind, then so be it. That will because it is my choice, not because I couldn't do it. Thank you Tessa for helping me realize all this. We aren't losers, and as long as we have each other, we can conquer the world. Love you girl.