Drowned in confusion

Lately, I have had a change of heart when it comes to my future job plans. New factors set in that shouldn't neccicarily be factors. I'm trying to just concentrate on school, but lately all I can think about is the future. I feel like I know what I want in life, and that is not to be a doctor. The idea is nice, but there are certain factors that are making me not want to go all the way. For example, I want a family. I want to have children. Now, I am not saying that doctors can't have children,  in fact I know they can.  I don't want to be 30 and just start having kids, yet I don't want to be in med school and have to worry about being a mom during that time. Also, I want to have time for my kids. I don't want to have to worry about being on call all the time, and not being there. I don't want to miss their lives. My career isn't going to go above my family. How silly am I? Barely 21 and thinking about such things. I know I have to fall in love first and get married. It's just confusing, and it's annoying. What is even worse is that there is only one person I want to talk about this with, and I can't talk to them because I am not currently in communication with them. Yet I feel that that person has more pull on it than anything. I don't know what to do. I have decided to take a semester off of school. Don't worry, I will go back. haha I just need a semester to focus on me. I just want a semester off so I can work, and see what the future can hold. I'm getting really interested in Labor and Delivery, and maybe even being a nurse. Who knows. I just know that going to school is confusing things for me. So what will I be doing on this semester break? Work, Work, and more work.. I do plan on going to Massachusetts for 2 weeks at the first of the year to visit my best friend Olivia. Oli Olive I call her. Maybe I just need a change of pace for a while. I believe a trip up north will do the trick. I'm so lucky to have a friend like Olivia. She's always there when I need her. Plus I can be myself around her....even if I am totally goofy and dorky. I can also tell her my troubles and expect to hear good advice. She doesn't tear me down. So Oli, if you read this...thank you. You make things so much clearer. I'm hoping I will figure everything out soon, and I will make sure to keep posted on my process of thinking and decision. Who knows what this life has in store for me... who knows.