New goals, less confusion

           I'm guessing this is just a blogging week for me. I don't know. haha I feel like since I blogged a few days ago that my goals and plans are starting to come together. I'm honestly thinking about becoming a nurse. It's a scary thought to think about, but at the end of the day I think it is for me. I want to be a labor and delivery nurse. When I was a little girl I was always watching that show on TLC where they show the story of the man and woman having the baby, and then you get to experience them having the birth. I loved it.
            I feel like there is a lot of career advancement available for nurses. I want to become a nurse, and then after being experienced for a year or two I want to be come a nurse-midwife. I might even go back to school and become a nurse practitioner. Who knows. There are so many ways that I can advance myself. I can also become certified in other areas as well. I also realized that I can still can be apart of Doctors without borders because they take RN's and nurse-midwives. That would be my ultimate goal. I think my family can do without me for a year or so.
           Things are definitely looking up in that aspect, but I still want to take a semester off. Then in the fall I will be in nursing school. I still have to figure out where I want to do that. I'm torn between UALR or the Baptist Health school of nursing. Guess I need to start doing some research. I've also been doing some job searching for more roles with babies and expecting moms. I'm real serious about wanting to get some more experience. I want to be a labor and delivery nurse right out of nursing school (if possible), and I believe that if I start now then I will be a better candidate. :)
             I am so ready to go to Massachusetts. I think I just need a few weeks out of this state. I want to go on adventures, and do things with my best friend. I want to clear my head, and just...go wild...respectively of course. I'm hoping that I can get off of work for 2 weeks. If I'm going to be up there, I might as well stay a while and get my feet wet...right? Well I guess the term would be to get my feet cold. I want to see NYC, and build a snowman. The simple stuff..ya know? More importantly is that I want to see Olivia. It has been so long. It isn't even funny.
            The last thing I wanted to talk/vent about is the fact that I am a little scared. I feel like there is so much anxiety, and I don't know what to do. It's hard to open up about it on a blog, but I just feel closed and trap. I feel like I can't breathe. Ever get that feeling? Well I better get off here and stop blabbering on.